You are Powerful and Limitless… that’s what I learned in my journey.
When you see someone’s photo or social media profiles, it’s hard to know exactly what it took for someone to get to where they are. I trust energy, and therefore,
I trust that you had a colorful journey as well, and that you already understand what I mean by this. It took you a lot to get here too.
In my 20’s, I had many goals and desires, but I found myself unable to achieve most of them. I had two primary desires: An outstanding career, and I really wanted to be a mom of a boy and a girl.
At the time, as most parents do previous to having kids, I wanted kids for selfish reasons. I wanted to create a family of my own to “undo” and fix the series of trauma in my childhood (ie. “I can do better!”).
My childhood was a constant, back-to-back series of high trauma and adversities: the untimely death of my mother, 2x immigration, neglect, and severe abuse from my father, an alleged malignant narcissist or a psychopath, and 2 equally damaging stepmothers.
My childhood home was a place of many secrets, traumatic abuse that you only see in horror movies, including violence, battery, alcoholism, lies, disconnection, and identity confusion, where my father made us change our names, after abruptly immigrating us to Canada without divorcing or telling his third wife. Around this time, I suffered repeated sexual abuse for 5 years after hitting puberty.
This upbringing trained me to know how to perform and look perfect to others, although, I had a streak of being a Truth Seer and Teller, which are the most inconvenient gift in a child, from the perspective of a family run by a dysfunctional parental leader.
I started my independent adult life when my narcissistic father abandoned his two teenagers, my brother and me in a suburban city near Vancouver, Canada. I was 16, hiding from school teachers that I was attending school without any adult supervision. I wanted to avoid foster care.
My brother and I were teenagers, struggling from lack of food, scared of becoming homeless, scared that someone will find out who will “betray” and call social services, yet, one thing I did experience is the freedom of no longer being subject to active narcissistic abuse from our father.
I thought of this as my freedom, except… I did not realize that my brain was designed and automated to survive a war zone and that this was the very reason why fitting into society, making and sustaining healthy friendships, and achieving goals that mattered to me, were impossible for me.
I kept going to therapy from the age of 18, but I couldn’t seem to heal myself from continuously creating destruction and unhappiness. Despite my highest intentions for an abundant life, I found myself in many other cycles of trauma, scarcity, and heavy responsibilities… the exact format of my childhood.
I did not recognize the pattern until I left a dysfunctional relationship at the age of 29, with a boy and a girl, just like I always wanted, but I found myself in the deepest rock bottom, unable to parent them with opportunities and options due to lack of time for work (as a parent with young kids), and lack of money, which meant I had to leave them behind to make ends meet.
This made me wake up for good, and do the hardest thing, which was to become brutally honest with myself that who I was being, was creating my life circumstances.
I could not breach my most important values while being controlled by circumstances where I “ruin” my kids, raise them in disconnection, and repeat the all too familiar horror cycle, all over again.
I decided that I had to do whatever it takes or to die trying… the dysfunctional cycle had to end with me.
Fixing my generational legacy had to begin with me.
How does my story relate to you?
You’re here because you’re deeply unhappy, you find yourself unable to achieve important goals, and you’re now sick of waiting.
Through the process of being human, we become “marked” by negative experiences, and when we don’t learn how to process these pains, we make limiting, unfavorable choices based on them, ones that often go against our greatest goals and desires. Outside of our conscious awareness, the past starts to dictate and shape our future.
Everything we create in our adult life is controlled by our formative Conditioning. Until we recognize how deep these patterns run, and understand the difference between true intuition and instinct, mental construct and reality, coping mechanisms, and “personality,” we keep getting ourselves disappointed and hurt in dysfunctional relationship dynamics, unhappy outcomes, and constant emotional and/or financial scarcity.
No matter how good you believe you had it in your life, your original Conditioning is always about survival, not thriving. It’s about limits. The limits of doing what you already know, and what’s been known as a possibility for you. Your brain is designed for survival, and in order to make sure you survive, you’re naturally programming to choose what you’re already deeply familiar with. This is how you keep repeating negative outcomes.
Repetition makes these life results “reality,” and it feels “indisputable,” and like “fate.”
The good news is that you can exit this paradigm by creating a new vision, and practice mental and behavioral patterns that match that paradigm.
For my heirs, I had to become that woman who is committed to having it all, both a fruitful, fulfilling career, and honest, loving, deeply connected relationships, which is the kind of life outside of any realm of possibilities that was ever presented to me as my options.
My life changed when I learned the most effective way to intentionally set my subconscious patterning and leveraging my subconscious mind to powerfully command the course of my destiny.
The cool part is that I now live the dream which I wrote down as a vision back in 2015, in the midst of many deeply personal and professional struggles. Now I live it, breathe it, and thrive in that vision that once, was just a desire and a mental picture.
Currently, I live in Vancouver, Canada, with my two children, who are now a teen and a pre-teen. I have worked with clients all around the world, in 6 continents, and in 15 different countries (and counting).
With clarity and power, you can learn to manifest what you want using your most incredible weapon: your mind.
There is nothing I wish for more for you than to align and thrive as your greatest self in your career, relationships, and build a powerful legacy.
Will you join me?